I’m trying so hard to stay away, but you don’t understand how much this is killing me. I still talk about you even though you’re not here, I still think about you even though you’re not here, I still write about you even though you’re not here. You told me to get out of your life and I don’t understand how it can be that simple for you. You just say goodbye and you move on to someone else and completely eliminate me from your life. I don’t understand how it’s that easy when I’m here still crying over you when you’ve been gone for so long it seems. It feels like you were never here and all I want is for you to be here, but not this new relationship, coldhearted you. That’s one of the reasons I’m staying away, but you told me to go away and never come back because that is what makes you happy. No matter how much you hurt me, all I want is for you to be happy and this is hurting me because I’m alone and scared, but I guess I deserve it, huh? Because I loved too hard and I’m not her. I don’t understand why if you’re the one who gave up all those times why I am the one suffering.
late night thoughts (via 14beanie-boo)